The running groove is back. The 5km run I did the day before and 8km run I did at East Coast Park today was exceptional. The runner's high lasted throughout the night and I think I will be sleeping very well.

The new lifestyle I have adopted is indeed making positive changes to my life so you can be sure that I will keep this up. I will pick up rollerblading as it is not so punishing on the knees. It is something I am totally looking forward to, once I get myself a new pair of rollerblades.

I have been thinking a lot lately, sometimes it is good to indulge in something that takes my mind off things, no?

Dogs do get depressed over the way they look too. Absolutely comical, I cannot help but be amused.:) Miko's recent grooming session left her looking like an odd hybrid of a Miniature Pinscher, a Chihuahua and a barrel. Gone is the big hair and the mane she used to toss about so proudly. The groomer shaved off everything, save for a little flower of a tail.

Poor Miko. She came up to greet me when I got back this morning and whined before listlessly slinking back to her usual corner. She is extremely self-conscious about it and lying low for the moment. No more strutting about in her usual yaya papaya way and acting cute.

I think I understand, if I know I have had a fugly haircut, I'd behave the same way too. Hell, she is just like me.

What a great way to spend the weekend. I caught Swan Lake on Ice with my cousin yesterday and I absolutely loved it. Following which, we attended the healing service at Lighthouse Evangelism with both our mothers. Then, I caught Ratatouille with a friend thereafter. I adored that movie and its underlying theme. The tale is simple, sweet and yet carries a powerful message. Anyone can do anything if they dare to dream and not limit themselves to what society dictates.

I like that.

I attended church again this morning with Judy, her beau and her friend. After which, I went for fitting for the dress I am to wear for Judy's big day. She asked me to be her bridesmaid and I am deeply honoured to be a part of it. I cannot wait and I am so excited for her!:) Another one of my dear gal friends is getting married next month and I am very extremely happy for her as well, though it came as a surprise. It is lovely to see them bask in the glow of the upcoming wedding bliss and their happiness radiating from their faces. And as for me, I have something else to be happy about.

:)

I am off to Amsterdam tonight, be back soon.

In the biblical sense, I was reminded of Adam, Eve and the serpent. Uncertainty clouded my mind and my conviction wavered only for that moment, then it was gone.

I would not be able to identify the 'serpent' until more things come to light, in the meantime, I can only trust the Lord.

Nothing in life is for certain, and I am resigned to the fact that I cannot take things for granted and expect things to remain the same. While it is nice to have a pollyanna approach to life's issues, the reality is that nothing is forever and nothing remains the same. That, I do not forget.
So I let myself to go with the flow and allow myself to be pleasantly surprised.

I have had many pleasant surprises over the past few months and this morning was no exception. I broke the news to her and braced myself for a violent reaction. To my astonisment, she took it well and was very cool about it. By taking the plunge and telling her, I feel an incredible lightness in my heart.

Something miraculous is at work here and I am basking in the glory of it at long last.

When is it ever a good time break a piece of news? Almost never, if you know that the recipient will not take the news very well.

I have left a few things in limbo for now as I have to ponder about the next step very carefully. It is unwise to go ahead and start counting my chickens until I know more and things become even more certain. What is left to do now is to pray for guidance and wise counsel and to tell mommy.

That, I will have to do eventually.

Nabei... Slid off my seat after paying the bill and landed on my ass. So shy man... I sprang up like a deer and laughed it off hehehe:) P.T had a good laugh out of it, but so did I heh. Just one of those days. eh?

But having said that, I have been having a wonderful time meeting up some of my friends over the past 2 days., particularly tonight. My hot date was with my beloved batch girl, P.T, who has left the airline recently. There was lotsa laughter and much to share, the same good old times that I miss. The night ended on a very pleasant note which lingered on after we parted ways.

The 4km run after I came back from town was much needed. I am off to bed now, gotta wake up to get ready to fly to Beijing in 2 hours' time.

This morning, I received some news that will enable me to plan my next step. Now, I will have a huge decision to make that will change my whole life in years to come. There is no comfort zone to speak of until many years later and only, if I make it through. Sometimes, I wonder where I find the courage to proceed up to this stage where before, I was so afraid of change and the possibility of failure and hardship. This will be a tough journey but I know I will not be alone. I only know that when you find a purpose in your life, you do not let it go. The destination is in sight, but it is the journey that counts and defines your life.

There is a time for everything and the time is now. The events leading up to this have fallen into place so seamlessly that it is more than just a mere coincidence. I am in awe and at a loss for words, yet I am strangely calm and my mind is at peace. God has provided me in ways that are far more than what I have asked for. Whatever the outcome, it will be the best for me. I keep that faith.

A girl who dares to dream big. Dreams to come true, eventually, if you believe in it hard enough.

It is the beginning of all change and I will have to make some very important decisions very soon. There is none of the jitters or apprehension because the heart and the mind has long been prepared for this.

I will not get my hopes up until the plans become concrete. Now, I can only wait and watch the events unfold, following which, I will embark on that long journey of faith, towards the vision that burns brightly in my mind.

I will leave it in His hands.

Living for the moment is perhaps the happiest way to live life. I no longer let myself be bound by the past, nor do I fret about the future. Although the direction has been set, lot still remains to be seen. I have adopted the 'what will be, will be' attitude because everything changes. Instead of being unhappy about what we cannot control, we live for the moment and then we move on.

I will miss the cool touch of the ivory keys under my fingertips when I leave for my 10 day 'pilgrimage' trip tonight. I do not know when I started forming such an attachment with the instrument I have grown to know and love, but I have come to realize that it is also the same with certain people in my life.

Affinity is a word that is very much synonymous with my life. I tend to be very drawn to anyone or anything that I have a mutual affinity with. When it comes to people, however, it can be one-sided. That, I do not have to elaborate on. We are all creatures ruled by emotions, even though some may beg to differ. There are instances where I find myself forming attachments to people who may not feel the same. We cannot run away from expectations but we can change the way we handle it. Such is the drama in my life which I am doing my best to minimize.

The greatest blessing in my life is to have found an affinity with God. He fills the void that I once had, and I am glad beyond glad that I turned to him. My next sentence is a personal message to someone. We have all made our fair share of mistakes in life because the flesh is weak. The most important thing is to learn to forgive ourselves and repent because the Lord has already forgiven us. Let go and walk in His grace.

I feel that familiar twinge when I have to go away again because I feel like I am cut off from the people I am used to having around me. Having said that, God goes with me wherever I go, so i will make the most out of my time in Dubai and Moscow.

Will miss you, you and you.