Glad that I did not have to lose something to make me realize what I have.

Karyn White -- Superwoman HD version

This song speaks to me in a way that I can relate,(maybe not the part about preparing breakfast and dinner), but yeah the lyrics of the song pretty much sums it all up.

The question I always ask myself these days is, do I or do I not open that can of worms? Should I speak up or forever hold my peace?

Imagine Music Video- Glee Cast Version + Deaf students

Today, I looked out of my window and marvelled at the expanse of the sky, promising me the freedom I desire. I know I will get there.

The sermon on this Easter Sunday was a powerful one and it did more than reaffirm the peace in my heart, it changed my entire perspective.

How does a caterpillar cross a river? The answer? To become a butterfly. In that instant, a spiritual metamorphosis took place and I understood.

If I can see all around, then there is meaning to this journey. I know how I want things to be, so the change must come from within. In the end, it will be ok. If it is not ok, it is not the end.

A dawning of a new epiphany. The circumstances may not be all that pretty right now, but I will no longer let them have power over me and allow the negativity of my mind manifest even more in my life. I am done. I am not one who stays down for long anyway. As I write this entry, things are already beginning to look up.

With regards to a certain aspect of my life, i have decided to do things differently when it gets back to normal. I just know I will not put myself through this anymore. Call it silent manipulation. Sometimes, saying less is more.

What I need right now is the single glow of a candle in the darkest of rooms. Yet another part of me died tonight.

At times, I feel I can see the life I want laid out in front of me, yet when I look again, it is fraught with uncertainty. The only thing constant is change and if that is the case, I can only hope the change will free me of the limbo that has kept me prisoner. It has been too long.

Though it ain't a bed of roses right now, I have been blessed in many other ways, blessings which I am thankful for. It is only a matter of time before I take another important step in my life, in that aspect, it has been a pleasant surprise and I really cannot ask for more.

I really hope there is more to life, I have too many questions... I want to see, I want to understand. Above all, I want to find that deeper purpose of my existence. Can I make sense of it all?

Nothing like a letter to express one's innermost thoughts and feelings, things that are often hard to say out loud. The power of the written word is definitely not to be underestimated, because it can set everything right.

Having said that, I am at peace and I will focus on what is important to me now and set the stage for everything that is about to fall into place. My daily conversations with God has restored my innate faith in His perfect plan and perfect timing.

As all the events start to unfold, slowly but surely, I am beginning to see.

He is starting to make things right again, my prayers have been heard. :)