Thursday, August 30, 2007

It is the beginning of all change and I will have to make some very important decisions very soon. There is none of the jitters or apprehension because the heart and the mind has long been prepared for this.

I will not get my hopes up until the plans become concrete. Now, I can only wait and watch the events unfold, following which, I will embark on that long journey of faith, towards the vision that burns brightly in my mind.

I will leave it in His hands.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Living for the moment is perhaps the happiest way to live life. I no longer let myself be bound by the past, nor do I fret about the future. Although the direction has been set, lot still remains to be seen. I have adopted the 'what will be, will be' attitude because everything changes. Instead of being unhappy about what we cannot control, we live for the moment and then we move on.

I will miss the cool touch of the ivory keys under my fingertips when I leave for my 10 day 'pilgrimage' trip tonight. I do not know when I started forming such an attachment with the instrument I have grown to know and love, but I have come to realize that it is also the same with certain people in my life.

Affinity is a word that is very much synonymous with my life. I tend to be very drawn to anyone or anything that I have a mutual affinity with. When it comes to people, however, it can be one-sided. That, I do not have to elaborate on. We are all creatures ruled by emotions, even though some may beg to differ. There are instances where I find myself forming attachments to people who may not feel the same. We cannot run away from expectations but we can change the way we handle it. Such is the drama in my life which I am doing my best to minimize.

The greatest blessing in my life is to have found an affinity with God. He fills the void that I once had, and I am glad beyond glad that I turned to him. My next sentence is a personal message to someone. We have all made our fair share of mistakes in life because the flesh is weak. The most important thing is to learn to forgive ourselves and repent because the Lord has already forgiven us. Let go and walk in His grace.

I feel that familiar twinge when I have to go away again because I feel like I am cut off from the people I am used to having around me. Having said that, God goes with me wherever I go, so i will make the most out of my time in Dubai and Moscow.

Will miss you, you and you.