Friday, September 30, 2005

Who is Jessica Rabbit? One of the crew said I reminded them of her. I have no clue.

The recent flight to Auckland was unexpectedly, one of the more memorable ones. Good flight and best of all, great company. We bonded even after we had stepped out of the aircraft. It makes all the difference really.

In all honesty, that is the best part about being flying.

Also, I had one of the best runs I ever had in my life. I actually ran running outside of the hotel with the inflight supervisor and one of the leading stewards. We ran all over the place, running into parks, mini-trails and even up slopes, exploring new routes and all.

The crisp, cool air was invigorating and fresh. It was just lovely. If I had the chance, I'd want to do it all over again but only when I have company. It is not safe for a girl to go running outside alone.

I smoked a fucking hell lot on this trip a well. I hope I don't get addicted. At the moment, I'm still comfortably, a social-smoker.

Flying off to Bombay tomorrow and 2 days off the day after. Just sweet, lets hope this flight is as good:)

Thursday, September 29, 2005


My pretty cousin Ailin, and yours truly taken on 22/09/05 at Club Momo

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Today doesn't seem so bad, my baby made things right:) See ya all when I get back!
Amsterdam was nice. Lovely boots in all designs. Spent a bomb on a pair pf boots and forgot to claim 10% tax. Overloaded on the carbs and paid SGD$12.50 for a pathetic glass of orange juice at a restaurant. Went 'window shopping' at the red light district and kept teasing the guys about getting 'sexcited' and 'sexercise'. Saw the windmills and the wooden shoe factory that the Dutch are known for. But at the back of my mind, I was thinking of too many things to really enjoy myself. It was all good though...

I am utterly overwhelmed. I'm feeling screwed up, exhausted and I still have a million and one things to do. Fuck... I am off to Auckland in the evening and will be away for four days this time. Where do I find the time to do all the shit that I need to do?

Depression is slowly setting in. I seem like I am coping fine but I am barely holding it together.

All this, coupled with feelings of guilt. Guilty for not practising the piano... Guilty for snapping at my baby when he has been literally taking all my crap and giving in to me. Worst of all, I am feeling guilty for not being around to help my mom move and dispose the rest of the stuff in the old flat, to get it ready for the renovation.

She must be feeling at least 5 times worse than me... I don't know how she does it all, she has a full-time job, does all the housework, handles everything in the household and now the stress of the move and the renovation. She has my utmost respect. Just thinking about the amount of things she does makes me want to crack.
I am really feeling so bad for flying off when she could do with my help. No one wants my flights and I have no more leave to take.

I went back this afternoon to clear everything out from my room. And hell, I vow to minimize my possessions and do spring cleaning at least once a year. There are so many things I buy that I don't even use or need. The amount of things I threw away today is truly shocking... Honestly, I felt my heart breaking when I had to let go of something, but I had no choice.

It is far from over. I still need to sift out more things to clear from the pile I put aside to keep.

More than anything, I am feeling this way because I always wish I could do more... That's how my whole life is, all the 'could haves' and 'what ifs'. It is time to do something about that...

And baby, I am sorry for taking it out on you. I love you...

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Just a quickie entry before I fly off to Amsterdam tonight... I've FINALLY uploaded some pictures of my trip to San Francisco via Hong Kong, or any pics for that matter...

Nothing much to update, busy as hell. If you want everything, you've got to give up something... In my case, it is sleep.

Off to bed now, enjoy the pics!:)

Collage

Panda watching...

Kim and I again:)

Cable car ride:)

Taken at the spectator stands of the dolphin show in Ocean Park.

In the bus, on the way to Ocean Park, Hong Kong:)

My team girl Kim and I, lounging in the hotel room

The streets of San Francisco

Thursday, September 15, 2005

It was definately one of the best flights I was ever activated for or rostered, for that matter. I did not go sight-seeing again, which is a real pity, but the company of my colleagues more than makes up for everything. The flight was great too and I got a complimentary letter, to my surprise:) This is one of those times that I really feel appreciated and blessed that I'm flying.

The cabin crew and tech crew (pilots) actually all sat down together in Johannesburg to have dinner together. For those of you who are wondering, we usually don't have any contact with the tech crew once we touch down as we put up at different hotels at most stations. Thus, this is one of the rare times that the cabin crew interact with them.

I'm feeling happier since moving into this rented apartment than I have been in months. Now that I'm home, I have so many things to do that I really do not know where to start.

Oh and I got my Chinese 8-Characters analysis yesterday. It was pretty interesting I must say... The gist of it is that I'm extroverted, hot tempered and have more masculine qualities. This equates to a stronger character who wears the pants most of the time. I think I can be quite difficult to live with coz I like getting my way most of the time hehe:) I don't like the sound of that though. Much as I like my independence sometimes, I think a female should be taken care of.

The master also said that I will be good at most jobs I choose to do except teaching, coz I lack the patience. Apparently, the jobs that suit me the best are finance and trading coz I am good in money matters. That was a surprise, I never thought I'd be good at those fields.

He also said something else which I found rather amusing, ominous but at the same time, accurate. He remarked that I am good at everything except choosing a husband. My mom was agreeing with him rather vehemently... sheesh... His advice is to me is to get married only after the age of 27 in the Chinese calendar year. Suits me fine, I do not intend to get married early anyway.

Auspicious colours are black, white, gold and blue and numbers 0,7,8 and 9. Lucky me, I do not have to make much changes after all:) My wardrobe is mostly black, white and pink and my favourite number is 9.

My mom's analysis was a surprise though, but I don't think she'll like me blabbing about it. hehe:)

Nicole got a Jack Russell puppy yesterday!!! Oh god... I can just imagine how cute he is:) I can't wait to see him! I wonder if he'll get along with my darlings, I have a feeling Miko will love him to bits:)

I'm in a good mood today, just feeling tired and rather lazy heh... I think I'll force myself to go for yoga today... I must.

Friday, September 09, 2005

And so it is... I got activated for Johannesburg, just shortly after I came back from Melbourne yesterday morning. Utterly exhausted, I did too many things without having much rest. Attended a Power Yoga session today, it was rather tough and even more so coz my body was all stiff and aching from running up and down slopes at 80-85% of my max heart rate for 27 minutes.

I must be mad sometimes...

Melbourne was great, I had fun and I made a new friend with common interests, living around my area too:) Gotta go now, as usual, I'm sad to leave, will miss my baby especially...

Monday, September 05, 2005

It is my 2nd day in the apartment and I'm already all settled in. I don't think I wanna move out now!!! haha:) I've managed to move half my belongings over and my room is at the neatest I can ever remember it being. I have to get rid a fair bit of the crap I own and have forgotten all about.

I'm exhausted beyond belief, I wonder how I have managed to last til now... Gotta go and sleep now, I need all the energy I can for tomorrow's flight to Melbourne. When I come back, I am gonna enjoy soaking up the sun's rays by the poolside and make sure I attend a yoga session. Goodnight!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

My life is simply one big organized mess. Or more accurately, I've honed the ability to pick out the things I need out of the mess. I am flabbergasted at the amount of redundant things I actually own and now I have no idea what to do with them.

Bloody hell, I'm in such a highly-strung state before I go to work. At least I have packed all my clothes and stuff, get that out of the way first. I'll do the toiletries and the rest tomorrow morning when I come back from flight. Don't when I'll get the chance to sleep since I'll be working overnight.

Never mind, one baby step at a time... I have to get my act together now.

Friday, September 02, 2005

For about the 4th time, I forgot I had driving lessons today... Ended up making an appointment today for a free trial session at True Yoga the day before. I was late so I didn't attend the class. Instead, I was being suckered into signing up for 10 sessions for 4 weeks. Oh well, they have pretty interesting, specialized classes... but so bloody expensive.

My time management skills are horrible and I feel like I can't breathe, I was so overwhelmed, I had a mild anxiety attack just now. I have so many things to do, which are still not done. My family and I are moving out this Sunday, so that the renovation can start in October. I have so many freaking things to pack and I have a flight tomorrow.

*Sigh*

I am blogging now to calm myself down. To all the friends I have been neglecting, I'm really sorry. I am trying my best to make time, but my off days are just too little...

I need to sort things out in my life. I am just so glad that everyone has been so sweet and understanding.

Tomorrow will be a better day.