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When my hair was rather short...

I've come up with the perfect solution. Let me become thinner first, then I'll cut my hair to reward myself. Short hair looks better with a slimmer face and bony shoulders anyway.

And if by then, I'm still thinking about it, I'll go right ahead.

I am good. Haha!

I am seriously fucking pissed off. Sure, I have never been known to be obedient and listen to people but I think I am capable of making my own decisions. If you tell me you don't want me to do something, tell me nicely and I'd listen. But if you tell me in a screwed up way, I'll go right ahead and do it, just to spite you.

I don't get it, I'm her daughter for 22 years... doesn't she learn that being harsh and saying things to hurt my feelings is NOT the way to get through to me? If anything, it makes me even more defiant.

When I casually mentioned to her I might intend to cut my hair. The way she told me not to was so vehement...it's as if I told her I am moving out. Then she sent me a msg on my phone... saying that she feels very strongly about me cutting my hair and that if I insist, I might as well quit my job...

What the fuck?

Quit my job over a haircut? It is JUST hair.

Why does she always have to talk to me like this? Much as I hate to admit it, her words sting a lot.

*sigh*

I'm back. London was lovely as usual, but I didn't do much this time round. I have been there far too many times.

I have to start working out again. I realized that I have not been *gasp* exercising for at least 1 month. The irong is, I'm actually becoming a little thinner. I can't emphasize enough on the word 'diet'.

Been neglecting a few of my babes, gonna make the effort to meet you darlings really soon!

And now, I have a huge, huge dilemma. Should I cut my hair short? I want a chin-length bob. This has been giving me sleepless nights. I'm quite decided that I want to do it but I'm afraid I'll look like shit. It probably won't bother me so much if I didn't have work to think about and how I am gonna keep it neat and the process of growing out my hair.

Fuck man, I'm just itching for a change.

That 'send a smile' function on Friendster is just stupid. A few people have sent me that and then what? Expect me to reply? Honestly, I don't know what to say to people who 'send a smile'. Period.

Nothing much to update, I'm tired but happy, that's about it. Can be better. Gonna catch a few Z monsters before my 13 hour flight to London. My buddy, Jessica will be doing that flight as well! So cool! We have lots to catch up on.:)

Gotta go.

Me

For the longest time, after quite a number of bitching entries, I'm finally in a good mood. Tired yes, but definately in a much better mood.

My b/f left for Bangkok on Friday morning, with 6 of his campmates. He only called once to tell me he has arrived, said he'll call me back, but I have yet to hear from him. Not even one msg since. Hmmm... I'm not going to spoil his fun now. Strangely, I'm pretty cool about the whole situation. But he'd better have a damn good explanation when he gets back:D. Does have a menacing undertone to it, doesn't it? haha:)

Well, let's just say, it does.

Just got home from Zouk/Phuture not too long ago. Started my day badly. Woke up feeling tired and fucking moody, felt that way the whole fucking day. Was even more pissed for most of the entire fucking night. I'm just glad it ended okay and that I don't have to go to bed so fucking angry.

Left the house at 9.30pm and only went in the club at 2am. Lots of waiting around and by the time we got there, the queue was so freaking long and it was jam packed. I hate waiting, I really hate waiting. Everyone was not feeling happy at the situation. I kept very quiet. I could feel all the anger slowly building up. Pissed at the situation and very unhappy about something else.

I just prayed I wouldn't explode, so I kept very quiet. I didn't. It would have been major. It really showed on my face though. Screw it lah, I don't have to pretend to be happy when I am not.

We finally got into Phuture, I cheered up enough to enjoy myself. Huiling lost her phone halfway through. It fell out of her pocket and someone picked it up. Spent the next half and hour calling her phone. Julian, the guy who picked it up,actually took the trouble to call me back and meet us outside the club to return the phone. Thanks Julian, an honest and kind soul like you is hard to come by these days. It was the saving grace for an otherwise, unpleasant ending.

Gotta report for work in less than 8 hours time... my entry ends here.

I have a problem... my abdomen was so bloated today, it was distended. My uniform felt especially tight today. I experience this discomfort ever since I started flying and sometimes, I look 3 months pregnant if I don't suck in my tummy.

Oh and guess what? The complex leader told me that I need to watch my BMI. That's Body Mass Index if you don't already know. Right... I don't mean to be mean but isn't it kinda ironic coming from someone who has no waistline and a double chin?

For the record, I only make snide remarks about anal-retentive, nit-picking people who vaguely resemble a mother cow. No offence to the cows though...

I just found the whole situation hilarious haha:) But honestly, I do want to work on it and whip myself into tip-top shape. Like that of Jessica Alba or Angelina Jolie.

It has been quite some time since I last updated. Didn't want to blog because I was not in the best of moods and I had nothing to say. Got back from Dubai on Sunday morning and took 2 days to recover from the energy drain. It has never happened before, not this bad. Anyhoo, my energy levels are replenished and I'm good to go again.

4 of us went sightseeing in Cairo. It was breath-taking, simply amazing... Standing at the foot of the great pyramids was awe-inspiring. The colourful history of the ways of the ancient Egytians has long been a subject of fascination for me. To be able to experience it that day was totally out of this world. Some say that the pyramids are actually built by aliens. Heh.

The artifacts housed in the museum are really remarkable and some, extremely well-preserved. There is some sort of ominous air about the museum that I can't quite place my finger on. Anyway, it gave me the creeps, wasn't the only one who was imagining things coz my colleagues felt that way too. If you try looking directly into the eyes of some of the larger statues, you won't feel very comfortable. Weird.

We took turns to ride the horses and the camel. Riding the horse was a lot more comfortable although riding on the camel was an interesting experience altogether. I mean come on, you don't get to ride a camel everyday do you? The poor creature reminded me of a dinosaur, especially when it makes a sound like a forlorn half-wail. I truly felt sorry for both the horses and the camel. I don't think they were treated very well at all and it disturbs me...

I hated the bazaar. It reminded me of the time when I was in Bombay. I hate any noisy, chaotic situations where you stick out like a sore thumb and where everyone is aware of you and stare at you without inhibitions.

I didn't like Cairo very much at all, now that I have seen almost all that I wanted to see, I'll stay in the hotel the next time I have to go there.

Moving on, Huiling and Jeannie just left my house awhile ago. They came over to hang out and reminisce our primary school days. Earlier during the day, I met up with Jeannie in town and I ended up buying a lot of stuff. The usual, tops, a pair of Adidas shoes and lots of accessories. Everytime when I don't intend to buy something, I end up doing a lot of damage. I did not regret any of my purchases, except for a lovely white top with pretty lace details that made me look too top-heavy. Damn sian. Jeannie bought it from me and it looks better on her anyway:)

I'm in a much happier mood now:)

Judy had an interesting tag to her MSN nick, "Pretty girls have ugly feet." Haha:) Cute:)

Life is good despite some minor disappointments here and there. Nothing like having your loved one's company by your side for 3 days in a row:) Have not spent that much time together in quite awhile...

Oh, I met up with Jeannie for lunch today...after so long! Really missed her and had a lovely time catching up with her. Babe, if you're reading this, we're going to go for some serious dancing when I get back from flight:)

Off to Dubai and then to Cairo for 7 days... My first time to Cairo, I hope I will enjoy myself. Maybe I might have something interesting to blog about then...hmmm.

Off I go!

It's great to be a Gemini, so I can blame any misbehavior on my other half... hehe:) me and my silly mood swings. I'm feeling much, much better now, thanks to everyone who listened and was concerned.:) *hugz*

I have been spending a lot of quality time with my baby, I think it is doing me a lot of good. I finally have the time to catch a movie today. Managed to watch The Myth today. I liked it.

Now, I will go to bed and blog later in the day.

Blissfully unaware, it is true that what you don't know, won't hurt you... My first trip to Bombay, India, can only be described as an eye-opener.

An odd mishmash of extreme poverty and simple luxury that we take for granted. The glaring disparity of social statuses. Traffic, in my opinion, was total chaos with the sound of car horns blaring incessantly in the background.

Children tugging at your clothes and begging for anything that you can give them. The most vivid image I have was of this little boy. His face was expressionless, his gaze was blank and he was carrying a baby under one arm and swinging him around carelessly like a rag doll. I was quite disturbed, it is hard not to feel anything.

Next time, I will just stay in the hotel.