Monday, February 02, 2009

I need the most enormous amount of willpower to break me out of the inertia that has begun to hold me ransom. It is all fine and well when there is the momentum to keep me going, but as soon as all the activity dwindles down to almost nothing, it is an uphill task to get things moving once again.

It is a rut that I am continually finding myself in and I can feel myself slowly deteriorating. I seem to have lost touch with God and my inspiration, often losing sleep at night due to restless thoughts that keep me awake at night. This is one phase I do not really wish to go through.

On a more sombre note, I have to block out the unhappiness which has been affecting my emotional state. I am really quite disappointed that the issues could not be resolved. Now I am just numb and when I get that way, I just want to move on and leave it all behind.