Thursday, January 27, 2005

Don't you just hate it or feel disgusted when someone, who has seemingly EVERYTHING, starts whining and complaining about how much their lives suck and that God hates them, just because they didn't meet their expectations when it comes to grades (but still excellent grades nevertheless), or that they have early morning classes or that they are not as slim as they wanna be... And then proceeds to name his/her blessings (which is MUCH MORE than what average people have btw), and then concludes that it still doesn't make him/her feel better. HAH, right... Will someone please smack these brats up and inform them that the world does not involve them or their silly grades and other trivial matters? How trivial and superficial. And don't get me started on those people who are alreadydamn slim and then say they are fat and wanna lose weight... It is just fucking annoying can? BLOODY FUCKING annoying... Get real please...*rolls eyes*

Moving on... Is there such a thing as a fair world these days? Why can't everyone have equal happiness? No doubt, the shit we get ourselves into is based on poor judgement or the wrong choices that we make. However, I am not wrong to say that some of us have to make much tougher choices in life and have a lot more to lose if they make the wrong move. While some others have all their options laid out neatly in front of them, all ready for their picking, and it won't significantly affect their lives in a major way, whichever choice they make. Why do some people have to go through so many stumbling blocks in order to taste success or have a better life, while some face little struggle to get what they want? Awww, just fuck it lah... It is just too much to think about...

Actually the reason why I'm getting so pissed here is because, I read a blog that well, pissed me off immensely. It is just some stranger's blog really.. I just don't really like people who are sheltered and think that the world revolves around them and their silly little problems. Lately, I have been kinda troubled by all that is going on, I don't let it affect me but I emphatize, at least... There is sadness and troubled minds all around me, in varying degrees and affecting different people... the people I care a lot about... And it just sucks knowing you can't do anything to improve their situation or solve everything. All I can do is to listen and console them a little, or at least I hope I did... I suppose all these got me wishing people won't be so superficial, self-centred or insensitive. I guess there is some good in the world afterall... In the aftermath of the Tsunami disaster, a lot of people have dug deep into their pockets and made generous contributions and best of all, volunteer to help the victims and get their lives back to some semblance of sanity... I really admire and respect these people, with all my heart...

I am ashamed to say that I am one of those people I mentioned that irritated the shit outta me, or should I say, used to be. Eventhough, I don't come from a wealthy family, my mother has tried to give me all that I ever wanted. I was a brat when I was younger but I now, I truly appreciate all that she has done for me. I'm glad I went through a tough time coz it has made me a better person. Less selfish and more thoughtful and more aware of my surroundings. Sometimes, being taught a harsh lesson is paramount... *sigh*

Lost my train of thoughts, distracted by a phone call from my darling... the poor baby... Well, there is always a silver lining to every cloud yeah and things will sort themselves out somehow... I believe that after overcoming certain obstacles in life, it shapes us to be better people, more streetsmart in terms of dealing with shit that comes our way and not letting emotions rule our decisions that may backfire... Always having to make decisions, decisions and more decisions... when will it ever end?

Monday, January 17, 2005

Oh I'm such a quiz-whore... I just love doing quizzes hehe:)



Light
Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.


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You're Artistic, Sad, and Carefree
You are Artistic, Carefree, and sad. On the
outside, you are funny and sweet, caring and
loving. You are flexible and get along with
everyone most the time. You pretend to be
stupid sometimes just to have a laugh. However,
deeper inside you, you are very artistic and
curious. Music is your passion, your life. You
have opinions on lots of things, and wonder
'Why?' and 'What If?'. You have a strong talent
for the arts. Most people dont get this side of
you.You arent depressed, just sad and
disapointed with the world's state. You're
incredibly open minded, as well. But none of
you is fake, you are just very well rounded.
You aren't oblivious to the pains in this world
like most people are, but still at the same
time dont spend all your life with a frown on
your face.


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Sunday, January 16, 2005

Ooooh... I went sun-tanning for awhile yesterday... Great weather! I just love soaking up the rays, just heavenly and I got a tan hehehe:) I also got a heart-shape imprint on the side of my butt coz my bikini had a little heart-shape cut-out lol:)

Ate like a pig again at a bbq... TMD... When will I ever stop... Hate PMS, hate it, hate it and hate it!:(
Eye
~*~Beautiful Soul~*~
You're the type of person who is loving, giving,
sweet, generous, genuine, and optimistic. You
see the beauty around you and you admire it for
its faults, as well as perfections. Most likely
a dreamer, you are highly respected and liked.
People like to be around you because you make
them happy. You have a wonderful personality
and you're beautiful inside and out!




You're Beautiful...but why?
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Ranting sure does feel good hehe:) Weird thing is, whenever I am upset about something and start whining on my blog, things get better after that. Weird but in a good way. Hmmm.....

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

My classmate from my primary school days thought I went for plastic surgery when he saw my profile on Friendster... Plastic surgery on the boobs that is... Hahahahaha:) I was so amused and I still am... A boob job? That's a first lol;p But I suppose I should be flattered in a way... Anyhoo, moving on...

My darling said I treat my friends much better than I treat him. Come to think of it, it is true to a certain extent. I'm the sort who'd go out of my way for a good friend coz I'm extremely accomodating when it comes to friends... so much so I become a doormat if someone chooses to exploit that. I suppose this calls for some minor adjustments need to be made... I should also try to be more accomodating towards him... Our relationship is a lil strained these days, thanks to our busy schedules and being totally burnt out from exhaustion. I'm really ooking forward to my block leave and the holiday to iron out the kinks in the r/s.

That time of the month is coming again and I feel like shit. My hormones are going crazy yet again and so is my diet. Fuck man... I'm gonna work my ass off if I have to. My running shoes are my best friends at the moment... and I'm am gonna get a digital watch with a heart rate monitor and a calorie counter. Deciding between Polar or Nike, whichever looks nicer or has the features that I want. Yay... one more short flight before my block leave... it's time to burn, burn and burn!

Saturday, January 08, 2005

It was a realy really busy day for me yesterday with a bit of drama in btw... I started the day with only 2 hours of sleep, went for driving lessons, then came home for lunch and went out again for piano lessons. I headed down to town after that. I wanted to go to China Square Central and I got slightly lost coz I wasn't familiar with the area.

Anyhoo, I was walking like a gangster, really agressive and fast and getting all flustered. When I was the sheltered carpark, I realized that I had left one of my heels behind. I dashed back to get it and discovered, to my horror, that the strap had broken into half and that was no way I could walk in it. I was cursing and swearing like a sailor... There were like so many people walking about and I had to stand in one corner and make frantic phonecalls for someone to come to my rescue. There were no shoe shops in the vicinity and there is NO WAY I'm gonna walk around bare-footed. I was so freaking embarrassed... Thank God my dear babe Nicole was in Orchard and she told me to meet her at Heeren and she will buy me a new pair of shoes. As luck would have it, I was near the main road and I managed to dash out and get a cab. When I arrived at Heeren, I had to stand in one corner again until Nicole came with the new shoes. Luckily, there weren't many people around. She really saved the day for me, what would I do without her man?

After the whole fiasco, I went ahead with what I needed to do and met up with Nicole again afterwards and had a small catch up session. After that, I met my baby to watch Meet the Fockers, it was pretty cool and do check out the baby in the movie... I've never seen a more adorable and intelligent baby;p Enjoyed the show a lot, do catch it if you want a laugh!

Alrightie then, that's all for today, next up, gonna prepare for a flight to Osaka, see ya'll peeps!:)

Friday, January 07, 2005

I'm back!!! Yep! It's been quite a while since I updated... Anyhoo, I had a hell of a time in Christchurch... Jess (my buddy) and I went on a hot air balloon tour. There were 23 people in total and we were divided to stand into 4 sections of the basket. The ride was really smooth, it was quite an experience and the view was breathtaking... We even helped to prepare and set up the balloon and all! It was hard work man and it did not help that it was really cold and that I was the only joker wearing heels in a field hehehe;p Was supposed to go sky-diving but I chickened out, my heart will just stop beating mid-air so I'd rather not.

I requested to operate as a steward for this flight for both sectors. This means more of working in the galley abd preparing for the meal services as compared to being out in the cabin. It was my very first time and I had a lot of help and guidance from my team. Thank God I didn't screw up hehe:) In fact, I like this work position so much more heh:) Anyway, I'm glad I was given the chance to try and my chief said I did well for a first-timer heh:) So it was a great flight afterall.

I totally ruined my diet when I was out-station, ate so much bad carbs and drank so much wine... I think I drank like 2 or was it 2 1/2 bottles? It was crazy and I only slept less than 20 hours for the whole 4 days I was away. Need to undo the damage...

My poor baby got into a lil trouble recently and is feeling really bad. I admit I was quite harsh to him when all he needed was my comfort... I can be quite a meanie,huh? I guess I am just like that, the realist in me does not believe in babying someone and cooing sweet and comforting nothings. It was his fault aftera;; and it was not the first time. Fortunately, it isn't that serious and although it will cause some inconvenience in the future, I don't think anything will change. I assured him of that. More pressure for me to pass my driving on my first attempt...