Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Busy, busy and BUSY!!

Man... I feel like I'm not resting enough... just got back from a Manila turnaround last night and have to work again tmr... and it's a long flight... to London and it's a day flight *sigh* Gotta report really early tmr too... I cancelled my piano lesson today coz i don't feel too good and I have a driving lesson later on... my first! Wonder how it'll turn out... hope the instuctor is good and patient coz my brain is half-functioning today... hehe:) I think I need to get more winter clothing coz it's gonna be really cold in London, like 7 degrees C to 13 degress C at best:( I am already experiencing the beginnings of a cold and a sore throat... Need to get some dry stores as well since I'm on a diet... based on my blood type, which is Type O.. More on that later on... still trying out... Must lose weight lah and look better heh;p I binged on the carbs yesterday... 3 ice-creams!!! Oh Lord... luckily there was no 'damage'. Gonna work out today man... this cannot go on lol;p Think i'm gonna rest a lil now... Ciao!


Monday, October 25, 2004

Is it just me or...?

I've been thinking about a random incident this afternoon... My father saw me getting ready to go out for my piano lesson and asked me if I'm gonna pass any shops... Being rather moody, I answered him in a very curt manner and immediately regretted it so I softened my tone... all he wanted was for me to buy him a packet of ciggies... Last night, I was on my way back home after a flight when my mom called to ask where I was, I think I was quite rude too her as well coz I was so tired... but then I remembered she did not know what time I'll be coming back coz I was called up for this flight and that she was just concerned about me...

Which brings to mind... How often are we guilty of letting the people who care the most about us bear the brunt of our displeasure? And that we put on a smile and be nice to people who don't deserve it even though all you feel like doing is slapping them? Is it just me or are most people like that as well? That's something really bad that I don't like about myself and I'm gonna make a conscious effort to change it. I guess the closer people are to us, the more we take them for granted and that's really sad... I think I must have hurt my mom and dad when I spoke to them like that... I really don't mean to and I'm ashamed of myself:( The one who suffers the most from my mood swings is my darling... I swear he has the patience of a saint, putting up with all my shit... when he doesn't have to. He's always asking me, "Where can you find a boyfriend like me?" And I'd always reply him jokingly... "Everywhere." Truth is... I don't think I can and I'm really lucky to have him.

Having said all this, I find myself being nicer to friends and colleagues... Some of them piss the living daylights outta me and yet I still find myself being patient and accomodating towards them... It's like what the hell?!? I think I'm killing my soul by doing that... Fuck man... I do feel I need to get my priorities right. Of course I do treasure those friends who really know me:) I'm referring to friends as in mere acquaintances... Some of them speak without their words going through their pea brains, esp. the guys... No offence but maybe it has to do with the maturity level perhaps?? I value quality relationships with people over quantity. Cherish those who matter and weed out those who don't... That's all for now. See ya peeps!

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Sunday Blues

It sucks having to work on a Sunday.... got activated for a Penang turnaround... dunno who's the idiot who reported sick grrrr.... Still having a slight hangover from last night's partying:( Don't feel too good at all... nosiree. New roster's out and it just gets worse everytime! I only have like 4 rostered flights for next month and 11 days' stretch of standby??? Hello? My roster was like that in October too.... must be the sudden influx of new crew... dunno why the hell they need so many crew... oh well...

Miraculously, my doggies didn't wake me up from their barking today:) They do that without fail when if I'm home during the weekends heh:) I must have been really gone or really tired or they just decided to be good today:) Love them both to bits!! Gotta get ready for work now... On a brighter note, at least I won't be getting the much-dreaded Monday blues!!! ;p I'll leave you with a picture of them...Ciao!

Sweet fluffy ones:)

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Insomnia...

Wah lau eh... It's 4.02am in the morning and I am still wide awake... This is bad... very, very bad coz I have to work tmr!!! ARgh!!!:( And I have a habit of waking up really early... thanks to my doggies' incessant barking:( So sleep-deprived... but for some weird reason or another, I function better with less sleep haha:)

Just got home not too long ago, spent time with my baby... it's nice to know that after 2 years of being together, I'm not only still in love but I love him even more than before:) He's A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! Can't ask for more really... he makes me happy:) And anyone who can put up with all my shit (not that I'm THAT bad) has to be amazing, need I say more? ;p Alrightie... enough of all this lovey-dovey thingie for now... Moving on...

Oh, oh, oh! To add on to what I have said on my previous entry about people changing so much they become an entirely different person altogether... I got a reply from another primary schoolmate... He was shocked almost speechless when he saw my pics... (I'm hoping it's in a good way... hahahaha;p) took him some time to figure out who I was... Don't blame him though... I was totally, totally different from what I am now... I wasn't a cute kid at all man... Rather plump, face like a moon, painfully shy and very meek in personality... And GOD... I had these ugly, godawful, plastic pair of specatacles that covered half my face... That was the real winner man coz my primary school classmates remember me for it!!! Can you imagine?!?! Sheesh...

Better FORCE myself to sleep now... tata! *muakz*


Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Nice surprises for the day:)

Oooh... this is cool shit man... a ranting spot that's all mine... a place to air my grievances and my form of therapy for dealing with the frustrations of everyday life:) Feel better even as I am typing away but then again, I'm in a very good mood today. This is my first entry on my very first blog... not new to the idea of blogging but I was too lazy to start one until my dear friend Judy suggested that I start one to update each other on our lives.:)

Anyhoo, I had a good day even though I was very sleepy... I woke up really early to go for piano lessons this morning, then I had to go run some errands for myself... Came back and went online and logged onto Friendster coz I had an e-mail alert to new msgs. I had a new msg from my classmate back in primary school!! Have not seen her like in almost a decade and she has become such a babe... even though she's already pretty back in primary school... but she looked so different I couldn't even recognize her. We're gonna catch up soon... probably sometime next week if my schedule permits... Can't wait!:)

Through her link, I found a few of my other classmates from primary school and GOD, time really changes a person... it's so damn interesting... It's like you have a certain memory of people and then a few years later... WHAM!!! You get a totally different person and it's like having to get to know them all over again... how weird is that? Weird but cool haha:) It's a nice surprise though... hope all of us can continue to keep in touch...!

And to add on to my good mood... I received an e-mail from my company saying I got a compliment letter from a passenger on 21/06/04, 2 days after my b-day and during my first month of flying!!:) I was praised for excellent service and resourcefulness:) *floats* Notice how the best surprises come when it's unexpected? One of life's mysteries perhaps.... more on that topic later on.... Gonna meet my darling tonight and prepare for tmr's flight to Melbourne... :(