Monday, December 27, 2010

I was looking forward to Christmas this year but alas, it was troubling to say the least. It was indeed a memorable one, but not in a good sense. Instead, the memories of this Christmas and the one nearly a decade ago, leaves me cold and detached.

There were a few saving graces which I am thankful for, but the heaviness in my heart continue to weigh on me.

Career-wise, things are progressing nicely and I have no more need for a safety pilot, but yet, I have to drag my ass to work sometimes because of my worries outside of work. Though my darling has been by my side all this while and I have friends I can talk to, I have never felt more alone and helpless.

I wish I had the power to change things, but sadly, it is entirely out of my hands.