Friday, August 27, 2010

It is all good, cleared the base check and skills test without much drama. It is one hurdle out of the way but it is only the beginning. I am extremely thankful to everyone who has been by my side. It is now time to move forward.

=)

Monday, August 16, 2010

I thought the exams were the toughest part of the training, but I was wrong. I am progressively pushed to my limits as each session demands more of me. I press on with dogged determination and I will not concede to my mental fatigue, nor to my instructor's constant pressure.

One must go through the trials of fire in order to turn into gold. In this case, there is no exception. I lean on God for the strength and wisdom for my will alone is not enough.

I am managing but I strive to go beyond. 3 consecutive days of training with barely 12 hours between sessions... I will and I must get through this.

All throughout, my heart has been restless and slightly troubled. While it has not made me lose focus, I just do not feel right. A lot remains to be seen but at this point, I am not even sure what to expect.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I happened to chance upon a couple of blogs written by cabin crew of the airline I used to work for... and spent the next one hour reading quite a few entries.

I found myself spending a little more time reading the blog of a stewardess who joined the same year I left the airline. Her entries struck a chord with me and I was reminded of myself when I worked as a stewardess for 4 years. I could relate to her thoughts and feelings and in hindsight, though it had been an interesting experience, I really do not miss the identity and the job at all. However, I am still thankful for the opportunity and how it changed me as a person.

What we choose to do for a living can really impact our personal lives and in many cases, our jobs become an occupational hazard. I was reminded of the private pain and struggles that I used to have and I hope, with all my heart, that I would be spared from all of that now.

I am just glad I will get to come home everyday, albeit at odd hours. It is not going to be easy to balance my work and personal life but I am going to try my very best.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Something as simple as adjusting the armrest and making sure my forearm is resting securely on it during the flare makes a world of difference. I must make sure I get what I want when I am in control and whatever I changed gave me the result that I wanted.

I am happy with the progress and I must continue to keep this up. Today, I sat for the final type exam with the aviation authority. It was much easier compared to the JAA type and performance exams I sat for, but nevertheless, I am glad I am finally done with all of them.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

I knew that when I chose to step into this industry, I will have to prove myself over and over and over again. Today was no exception.

Yes, I do concur that I need to improve on one area but I have made progress since the first session, that was acknowledged during the feedback I got. However, it can always be better. I took the criticisms positively and told the person concerned that I will show him, because I know I can. So I had better damn well do it.

The fighting spirit has been unleashed and I will rise up to the challenge. I will conquer that bitch, sans autopilot, if it is the last thing I do. Steely determination, it is good to have you back.