Aside from the fact that my head hurts and my eyes are gonna pop out of their sockets from all that coughing, I feel like I've almost totally recovered... YAY!!!!!!!!:D

When I was in primary school and secondary school, I always hoped to get sick so I'd have an excuse not to go to school. It hardly happened though, much to my disappointment hehe:) Now, when I DO NOT want to fall sick, I fall sick in a major way. Like the time I had to be hospitalized for tonsillitis for 3 nights when I was still under probation. I do not ever wanna go through all that suffering ever again. So, I must be a good gal now. Eat plenty of fruits and veggies, exercise, watch my diet, eat my multi-vitamins and most importantly, have ample rest. Which means I will try not to be too obliging to other people at the expense of my rest. I shall not try to be a heroine and attempt to do more than what my body can handle.

I will start running again tomorrow morning if I am not activated for flight. Finally!!! Nothing too ambitious though, just half an hour or so:) Jeannie will be joining me if she can wake up hehe:)

I will now listen to Jessica and go to sleep. (Thanks for your concern gal)*hugz*:)
Later peeps!

I am feeling god damn sorry for myself... :( Spent the night coughing my guts out... My adominal muscles are now aching so much from all that coughing. Even my shoulder blades and collar bones are not spared from the pain either. I got another 2 days' MC from the doctor yesterday coz I was not fit for duty. That's a total of 4 days of medical leave. The doctor said I will take about a week to recover... I have been sick for 2 weeks already! I really can't wait to get better, so I can resume my normal routine.

At least I eat a lot less when I am ill and I don't have cravings for junk food;p What's weird though, I don't find myself getting any slimmer. I thought most people usually lose a lot of weight when they are sick? How come it ain't happening to me?!?:( Not fair.

Poor poor Vanny... *sigh*

I think I shall try to cheer myself up by buying stuff. Oooh, lookie what I found!

Prismatic stained glass butterfly, oh so pretty!

I am in love with this:)

Simply gorgeous...

Another fantastic design:)

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Intricate butterfly in pink crystals, I love butterflies:)

Yet another butterfly design, I like it better than the previous one because of the enamel butterfly...

So cute!

I want them all! Hahahahaha:)

I could not get out of bed this morning... I feel like I pulled every muscle in my body. fortunately my mommy came to check on me. She gave me my painkillers and turn off the air-conditioning. I could only sit up after the medicine took its effect. Well, at least the fever's gone now, a good sign that the inflammation is subsiding. I am still coughing like anything and that sucks big time coz my sides feel like splitting everytime that happens.:(

I am feeling so helpless and unhappy... can you blame me? I have not been well for the past 2 weeks or so. The only consolation is that I have is that there are people who really care about me... I am grateful for that. I received a sweet message this morning... I was pleasantly surprised and it put a smile on my face:)

That's all for now, I need to rest a little more. I really hope I get better soon... It is killing me:(

Reported sick for tommorrow's flight... I am totally not fit for duty. I dread coughing, My sides ache so much whenever I do. I hope I feel better tomorrow...

I am in so much pain that my muscles protest in agony everytime I make a movement. Even something as simple as lifting my legs up or walking requires a huge effort. I was shivering the whole of last night and had a really high fever throughout the night. The worst are the wheezing and the hacking coughs. I am forced to double up in pain whenever I have to cough. :( I am thoroughtly, thoroughly miserable...

I have been sick for almost 2 weeks now. Just as I was recovering from my asthma attack last week, I had another one, even more severe than the last. On top of that, I have a viral infection that's causing the fever and the aching pains. I had to miss the 2nd day of the company's annual sports meet today... I was supposed to run the 100m even and the 4x100m relay, both my pet events. I attended the first day of the sports meet yesterday. I placed 3rd in both the long jump and the 200m events I took part in. Not too bad, considering my condition.

I am still contemplating whether to report sick for tomorrow's flight to Melbourne. The doctor gave me so much medicine and 2 days' MC. I guess if I am still not well by tonight, I won't work.

Oh my poor poor head... I think I need to sleep some more.

I don't believe this... 44 sessions that's gonna go to waste... How am I gonna use up 44 sessions by the 5th of July? *sigh* I will write a letter to Amore Fitness and try and talk to them for an extension. I will never allow this to happen to me again. Sheer waste of money. God. Kicking myself now...I would have gone more often... if the classes weren't so yawn-inducing.

I don't think I can do Yoga or Pilates, just not my thing. I need something faster and more exhilarating and I love to sweat it out. In short, I need my intensive cardiovascular workout. I shall stick to my running routine and combat classes in the future. Well, I still have my California Fitness membership to fall back on. That had better not go to waste.

Oh I did my grocery shopping after Yoga class just now. I now know what it feels like to carry a bag of rice and walk around. So now I'll be prepared to carry chocolates worth the weight of a bag of rice and walk in the freezing cold. Oh yes, I'm gonna enjoy this. HAH.

Time to work, Bangkok should be fun.

This entry concludes my 22nd birthday on 19th June 2005. It has got to be the most memorable and meaningful birthday in all my 22 years.:) No, I did not have a big bithday bash or a wild drinking session get myself sloshed. My idea of a quality celebration is when it is spent with different groups of people all closest to my heart. I would like to thank everyone for all their birthday wishes and for making it so special for me in all its simplicity.:) Especially to the one who put in all the effort to give me the most beautiful memories of my birthday...:)

That aside, I have been sick since I came back from Perth on the 16th til now. It started with a sore throat and a hacking cough, then I lost my voice on the 17th and I had an asthma attack yesterday. Was wheezing the whole day and I had difficulty breathing. I was sick throughout the duration of my birthday celebrations. Screw the fucking weather...

I have not been running for a week!!!:( When I was feeling well, I could run for an hour at a moderate pace and still have a conversation while running. Now, I get breathless just climbing a flight of stairs. Even standing at the taxi queue makes me feel faint. I HATE feeling so sick and weak and lethargic:( I can't wait to get better so I can get back to my normal routine.

Speaking of taxis... if you wanna flag a cab, don't wait at the taxi stand from 11.30pm to 11.55pm. Trust me on this. You can wait for half an hour and all the cabs will miraculously appear at the stroke of midnight. Heh...

Enough blogging for now, I need to prepare to go for work. Fortunately it's just a jakarta turn. Short and sweet. I can handle it.

Before I go, click here for some pictures.

If I have to eat another buffet again, I'll scream. 'Buffet' is a dirty word to me. It gives you the perfect excuse to binge and binge just to get your money's worth and then you'd feel all bloated and crappy. I had a lunch buffet when I was in Perth, coz everyone was having the buffet. When I came back to Singapore, I had a dinner buffet at Greenhouse at the Ritz Carlton the day I touched down. To make matters worse, I am getting my PMS symptoms early, which means I tend to eat a lot more. Wah lau eh... Nicole once remarked that I 'forever PMS'... Maybe she's right, it's just an excuse for my monthly bitch fits hehe:) Honourable mention, most people have been tolerant with me but someone has been taking the full brunt of my bad behavior. I'm impressed...

Sidetracking a little... I absolutely detest the words 'fleshy' or 'voluptuous'. They are T-A-B-O-O. Don't use them on me if you do not what to piss me off. Someone said to me that if guys think that you are fleshy, it means they are thinking about sex. What the fuck? What the fuck is that all about? I'm sorry but I think that is bullshit. HmmMPH!!!

I am sick with a sore throat and a bad cough at the moment so I can't go running or work out until I get better:( The weird thing is, the more I sleep, the more tired and weaker I become. I've been sleeping rather well these past few days and then I fall sick. When I sleep 5 hours a day, I'm always full of energy and zest. It remains a mystery to me.

Anyway, gotta go now, not gonna blog about Paris, forgotten the events and where I've been too heh. I'll leave some pictures I took. Pardon my poor photography skills though. Click here to view them

I have a lot of plans lined up, up til my birthday:) Small quiet celebrations, just my kinda thing:)

I'm sorry but this is gonna be one boring entry with no pictures coz I am too lazy and I don't have the time and patience to put up any.

I have pictures I took in Paris but coz I look like shit in all of them, I'm contemplating against it. haha:)

6 more days til I turn 22... For now, I'll delude myself and enjoy being 21 for until my birthday. Gosh, do I feel old... It seems like just yesterday that I was 18, then abruptly the realization hits you that you are freaking 22! Woah... whatever happened in the space of 4 years?

I am gonna have small quiet celebrations with the people I love most in my life. I have never believed in huge birthday bashes. Even my 21st birthday was spent quietly but it was meaningful. I do not like not being able to focus my full attention on my friends and family. Anyway, I actually dislike entertaining people and I'm too lazy to plan anything hehehehe;p

I hardly have time to blog as much lately. The past week has been a whirlwind of events. It's too personal for me to blog about it but it involves the matters of the heart. To that person, I am glad our lives touched at some point or another, albeit briefly. The impact you have made in my life is more prominent than you can imagine... That's all I'll say for now.

Ok, I'm in a fucking shitty mood now but I'll still put on my smile for work. Like this, :D. A good friend of mine once told me, when you feel down, a smile can lift your spirits. I find it works for me so it's great advice.

I really enjoyed my time in Paris. And no. I did not get any LV, or Chanel or Gucci for that matter;p I will blog more about it when I get back from Perth. Might upload a few of the pictures I took there. Bleah...

Your Birthdate: June 19

Your birth on the 19th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life path. But at the same time, it poses a number of obstacles to overcome before you are able to be as independent as you would like. The number 1 energy suggests more executive ability and leadership qualities than your path may have indicated. A birthday on the 19th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. However, a somewhat self-centered approach to life that may be in conflict with some of the other influences in your life. This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush. You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed. You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations. You do not tend to follow convention or take advice very well. Consequently, you tend to learn through experience; sometimes hard experiences. The 19/1 is a loner number and you may experience feelings of being alone even if you are married. You may take on a tendency to be nervous and angry.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Experimenting You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them. You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas. The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations. You are good at getting a group to reach consensus.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Modifying Super logical and rational, you consider every fact available to you. You don't make rash decisions and are rarely moved by emotion. You prefer what's known and proven - to the new and untested. You tend to ground those around you and add stability.

What's Your Thinking Style?

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Phew, I am finally able to catch my breath again. I have not blogged in quite some time and I do not know where to start. It has been a really busy week, shuttling between flights, meeting up with people and doing whatever I have to do. I slept so little for the past few days, about 2-4 hours sleep every night, and I'll be out the next day from morning til the wee hours in the morning.

Bitching time. I have no love for kids. Obviously, my maternal instincts have not kicked in yet. I mean I don't hate them or anything but I am tolerant at most. I only like well-behaved ones and I really dislike noisy, out-of-control kids running around and being a pure nuisance.

I especially dislike kids who are vocal and demanding. My God. They are irritants. I swear.

Have you ever had to handle a flight full of kids on an exchange program or a school trip from China? That is still one of my nightmares to date. They would be all over the place when you're trying to conduct the meal service and practically yelling for my attention. When you offer them what you have on the cart, they'd want something else and even 2nd serving. They were so surprised I spoke to them in Mandarin, coz I don't look very Chinese to some people. I should have gone on pretending hehehe:)

I even had a fucking kid who demanded that I look for his fucking BOTTLE CAP when I was busy boarding a hoard of passengers. A fucking BOTTLE CAP mind you. I am lucky his parents were understanding when I explained to them that I have to board ALL the passengers before I go looking for the GOD DAMN FUCKING BOTTLE CAP. I shall not disclose the country they are from:)

A day ago, I did a Penang turnaround flight. Flight time was 1 hour and it was a full load both ways. There were this 2 kids, they are from the same country as the kid mentioned above btw:) Kept pressing the call attendent button repeatedly and demanding for TV and games. But there ain't no TV or games on a 1 hour flight, I had to explain that to the parents. Parents said ok but the kids still kept pressing the call attendent button and asking for the same thing. The kid could speak better English than his parents and he told me he wanted to eat NOW when I was busy boarding like 30 passengers... There was a short taxi-way, meaning I have to make sure everyone is seated as fast as I can.

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It took every effort to control my facial muscles. The hair pins holding my French twist were threatening to pop out of my hair. I was not rude or anything but I am usually not so mean.

Oh and the kid unfastened his seat belt and started walking down the cabin and said he wanted to go to the toilet, when the plane was landing and it was very close to the ground. I had to get out of my seat and bring him back to the seat and told him to wait til the plane stops moving.

To be fair to them, they weren't rude or anything. But I felt the parents should have disciplined the kids more. I hate to think what they'd be like as teenagers or adults. Anyhoo, I was 'traumatized' after that, that I even dreamt of this little gal, about 5-10 years old, with her mother on the plane that night. She was really cute and she asked me for something. I told her to wait awhile. Suddenly, she screamed 'KNN CCB!!!!!!!!!!!' and started using a whole slew of Hokkien expletives at me. WHOA. I hope THAT doesn't come true.

I am so excited! I'll be flying to Paris tonight! It is my first time there by the way and I've always wanted to go! It is my team flight and I have a few friends rostered for that flight as well. Yay! It is gonna be so fun:)

I think I'll go running again before the flight, even though I'm aching all over. I need my cardio fix and I've been eating way too much again. There is no gym in the hotel in Paris:( Til then!