Sunday, January 20, 2008

It has been so long since I last heard those words. But when it was spoken to me today, all I could do was smile.

=)
It is only in the recent months that I truly comprehend the importance of knowing what I want in life and then picturing them in my mind. Those images have led me to hone my instinct for making choices that will flesh those thoughts into reality.

Though there is a fair amount of careful planning and reasoning behind my decisions in life, it is the intuition and the feel-good emotional factor that ultimately seals it. I have learnt to trust that inner voice and it has really become apparent to me now, that the gambles I made are starting to pay off.

Cliche as it may sound, you will know when it you come face to face with it. There is a slight trepidation because you cannot quite believe it and taking a step towards it means major changes. But there is also no fear because your intuition recognizes that chance and tells you 'this is it'.

Sometimes it defies logic and even your own beliefs because the signs leading to it are not quite what you expect it to be. In fact, it might arrive in the form of everything you would not have considered and disregard it. But when you know, you know and in my case, I cast aside all my initial reservations and embraced it.

Since then, I have made the best choices I have ever made in life. The glow of happiness that comes from within says it all.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

There is that underlying stress that is just bubbling beneath the surface, but despite that, the days seem to pass much more easily now. I know that I belong here and for the first time in my life, I am working towards something worthwhile.

I have absolute trust in the Lord and no longer do I feel fear. Commiting my life to Him is the best thing I have ever done because He takes care of everything. Never have I experienced blessings in such abundance and to which, I will not forget and be grateful for.

More recently, I received the biggest blessing of all. I am still awestruck at the chain of events leading up to this, but I can only say God works in mysterious ways. After all the disappointments I have had, a true gem has revealed itself in the most unexpected circumstances.

Sometimes you just know when it is a Godsend, this is one of those times.

=)

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Bloody hell, my handphone charger is my bane, yet I do need it so. I forgot to bring it with me again, for the third time. It is ridiculous that a small thing like that can leave me feeling handicapped as my phone battery goes flat on.

Sigh. Nabei lah.

Anyhow, it was an eventful weekend which I enjoyed and I have overcome the initial inertia to start doing what I have to do. Now that the momentum is in force, it is easier to keep going. No wonder it has been said that the first step is always the hardest.