Nothing to lose and everything to gain. It is done and true enough, my heart and mind is at peace with the decision I made. There is absolutely no substitute for passion and I intend to do all I can, that is feasible, until I know I can do no more.

I have remained still for the past 2 months, but my instincts tell me it is time to move again. While I have put my time to good use while waiting, being in the corporate world for barely a few months has started to derail me and make me lose focus. There have been more than a few signs telling me to get it back and be prepared, so when things finally happen, I will be ready.

Moving on from here, I was finally baptized yesterday. Though I do not feel as different as I had expected to feel, I know that my walk with God has to be even closer than ever from now on. In His perfect timing and divine appointment, I place my my trust.

Strong as others perceive me to be, what I need right now is a listening ear and to be comforted. I do not want a solution, what I want is understanding and maybe just a little pampering.

Can I be that little girl just for awhile? I want to taken care of and live life with abandon, without a care in the world.

My mind is made up and I know my decision will give me the peace of mind I seek. There will be no regrets as it is more important for me to be happy and find myself again.

Having had a taste of real passion and being given the opportunity to train for a future I know I will love, I long for the day I can go to work happy. Circumstances beyond my control has dragged me into a dreary reality that is now, though temporary, I can only dream of the day I get to live for that passion once more.

I have begun to wonder what my purpose in life is, where this is all going. Have I already started to lose direction? My mind has been plagued by many thoughts and it is has become a constant struggle to stay optimistic and driven in my current environment. It was perfectly fine, until things changed.

It is no secret that I have started to feel very restless, but this new role that has been tasked to me, might very well be the straw that breaks the camel's back. I am faced with one dilemma too many as I have many things to consider. I can very well suck it up at the expense of my happiness, but for what? There is no light at the end of the tunnel and I do not see this leading anywhere. There is no passion and a goal to drive me. This is way out of my comfort zone and there is simply no incentive for me to put up with this level of discomfort.

I can accept failure and defeat, because when I get knocked around, I know I can pick myself up again and soldier on. However, this is a challenge I choose not to take up because I fail to see how it will benefit me, except cause me more misery.

I have a very good idea about what I want and I know exactly what I do not want. No matter how many nights I spend praying about what I should do, the peace of mind eludes me. I know what will restore the harmony and rid myself of this torture, and I am quite ready to take this step. Perhaps, it will all be clear tomorrow.

Something in me is changing and I have a good feeling about this. The peace and serenity that I feel within affirms it.

My mind is swarmed with a million thoughts and I have a lot to think about. Without going too much into detail, I am not in a comfortable position but I appreciate the opportunity it gives me to grow and be a better person.

In more ways than one, I am glad that whatever happened today, happened. I may have opened a can of worms but I learnt a few things about myself. All I need now is to talk to God and have a good night's sleep.

STOMP 2009 was absolutely fantabulous. I was thoroughly entertained by the creative and intricate routines and awed by the impeccable timing and choreography. It was upbeat, hilarious and energetic and I had a smashing good time. Highly recommended!

Perhaps it is better not to have any expectations of people. Mine were not high to begin with, yet, I still find myself getting disappointed. I do not think I am being unreasonable and I am quite tired of accepting things which are making me unhappy. I am managing most aspects of my life well but once in awhile, they do come and bite me in the ass if I slip up a little. Such is life.

I am so tired that I am going to keel over any minute now. Experiencing one of my energy crashes after a long while and I am really looking forward to going home right after work. I am feeling happier about certain things which were sorted out, but I will not set my expectations too high, lest I get disappointed. 40 mins til I knock off from work, the countdown has begun...

Communication does set things right and everything is all good once again. If I can be in my element, life would almost be perfect.