The pain has subsided into a dull ache and although things are back to some semblance of normalcy, something in me has changed. Nothing is absolute, everything changes and will continue to change. I just have to be tough enough to take it in my stride.

The feelings are still the same but I will no longer allow myself to be vulnerable. What will be the straw that break the camel's back, or will it get better from hereon? Does it all have to be a game?

I do not know what I can believe in anymore, but the only one I believe in is the Lord above.