There are days where I feel that the optimism has been drained out of me and today is such a day. Things, other than the weather, look dismal at times. Progress-wise, things are good but it is the environment that gets you down sometimes. It is very hard to put into words what I am feeling but I feel like I am losing myself. I am a shadow of my former self and I feel shut off from the rest of the world.
It is a balance that is very hard to strike. Sometimes there is just no one to turn to, but God.