People change, for better or worse, and it is hard to find a friendship that stands the test of time. Many friendships are forged on a superficial level and these often crumble away into nothing after awhile. Even those who have had a steady presence in my life flicker on and off, like the flame of a candle, especially when their priorities change.
It is indeed an imperfect world that we live in and to find that perfect friendship or relationship is akin to finding the proverbial needle in a haystack. Nothing is forever and I have accepted that people come and go and that some friends are really not worth the effort. Then there are some people who resuface after a few years to give a fresh new jolt to the friendship that was long forgotten. I find it very heartwarming when I feel an affinity or connection to some people, even if it is only for that fleeting moment. Even better if it is for a longer period or time.
There are some friendships that I would love to rekindle while there are some that I would prefer to leave in the dust as I move on. I am happy to say that I have a few meaningful friendships right this moment and it is only fair that I focus on the people who really matter and to let go of those who have disappointed me one time too many.
Digressing now, I am really happy at how things have panned out and I am moving surely towards where I have set my sights on. A few days ago, I realized just how much my mother loves me and that it must have taken her great courage to support the decisions I have made so far. I love my mommy so very much and I am even more determined to do her proud. There is no giving up now and I will do myself the biggest favour that I have ever done for myself by placing absolute trust in the Lord.