I was not planning to follow Singapore Idol 2006 but now I have every reason to. I happened to watch the show last night and realized that my childhood friend made it to the Top 28!!!

Oh my God.




This was the girl I spent the most memorable part of my childhood with, together with my brother and her cousins, Bianca, Herman and Donnie. We met almost every weekend. We would cycled around the estate, run everywhere like monkeys posessed and play all sorts of games. We were rough kids and always got all sweaty and dirty at the end of the day much to our parents' annoyance.:) We loved the Spice Girls at one stage. Yes, the Spice Girls, don't laugh please. As well as more reasonable artistes like Alanis Morrisette and All Saints. Our love for singing and music made us decide to form an all girl band, just for the fun of it. Til this day, I can still remember the tune and the lyrics of the song Charmaine wrote.

We drifted apart when Bianca and her brothers migrated to the USA and when I went to secondary school. We were all in touch for awhile and then totally lost contact thereafter.

Such fond memories and I miss them all so much... Oh well, you can be sure who my vote will go to!:)

Gonna change my hairstyle again. Perhaps tomorrow.

I have been nicknamed Xena. One of my male colleagues gaped at me as I actively and effortlessly help passengers stow their baggage. He came up to me and remarked, 'Wah! You are very strong ah! You remind me of Xena!" He happily proceeded to announce it to everyone and called me that throughout the flight.

One evening, I walked into a restaurant in Shanghai with a group of stewardesses. I saw this guy staring hard at me. I did not recognize him but I smiled at him briefly as I made my way to another table. I could see him from where I sat and he kept turning back to look at me. Then, he caught my eye and started flexing his muscles in a most comical fashion.

With a sudden jolt of realization, I started laughing out loud. It was the steward who called me Xena from a few flights back! The other gals with me wanted to know why I was laughing so I told them. They all found it very funny and said it was a very apt description. Then he came over with his wife to say hi and to my mock indignation, started flexing again. Everyone roared with laughter. Well, before you know it, I was 'Xena' to them as well.

Wah lau eh...

Now all I need to do is perfect my battle cry, do somersaults and back flips in mid-air and seriously start kicking some ass. Hah! Oh and I'll probably need a new wardrobe as well...

Oooh, I caught Mary Poppins in London! It was a pretty good musical. just that I could hardly keep my eyes open coz I was so tired. I really wanted to watch The Lion King and Billy Elliot but we couldn't get the tickets and it was freaking expensive too. What a bummer!:(

The weather in London was perfect so I took the opportunity to do a bit of sightseeing with 2 other crew. We went to the Buckingham Palace to see the change of guards, then walked to the London Eye and took a river cruise to Tower Bridge. I wish I could have done more but I'll leave that for my next flight to London.:)





Change of guards at the Buckingham Palace




Aww shucks man... I have a strong craving for bread. That means that time of the month is looming ahead. It means I'll be more impatient and snappy than usual and if anyone irritates me, I'll just toss them over my shoulder and whoop their ass. Kidding!;p I'd better go to bed before I start bingeing. Goodnight!

What do you get when 3 best galfriends meet up for the evening? A night that is anything but dull, that's what!;)

I shall start from the very beginning... I went for my first ever massage in Shanghai with a group of stewardesses. 1 hour of foot reflexology and 2 hours of full body massage. 3 hours later, I ended up with bruises on the side of my forehead and my ankle but damn, the pain felt good. Oh well. what can I say? I'm a closet masochist at heart hehe... Either that, or I can take pain quite well.

I ran for about an hour on the night that I came back home, and that miraculously cured me of my illness. Then I knocked out for 8 hours straight and woke up, with the nuclear battery totally recharged.

Did some shit, ran a few errands and met up with the same group of stewardesses at the Goodwood Park Hotel for high tea. It was really pleasant and one of the rare occasions that a set of crew will meet up after the flight. I had a lovely time!

I went off after that to meet 2 of my favourite babes.:D

When the 3 of us get together, there is always that unmistakable twinkle in our eyes as we squeal and hug each other in greeting. We hung out at The Balcony at The Heeren and we had a totally wicked time, full of fun, laughter and lame jokes aplenty!;p

After we finished our first round of drinks, we called the waiter over. "Can we get a quick fuck?" one of us asked the waiter with a straight face. We were trying hard not to laugh when we saw his reaction.

We're ordering drinks godammit! 'Quick Fuck', it's in the menu! "Give us a 'Blow Job' and a 'Slippery Nipple' as well. We were being cheeky and I have to admit that we did it on purpose. But hey, we really wanted to know how the shooters with such crude names taste like.

We smiled to ourselves when the waiter served us the drinks. Hehe;p I thought they tasted pretty good but I'll still stick to my glass of red wine anytime. The 3 of us bundled into the cab, delirious, and started singing and moving about at the back seat. I think the cab driver was pretty alarmed... *evil smile*

I miss it all already and I miss the gals even more... gonna get ready to fly to London tonight right about now.

Jude and Julz: CHING CHANG CHONG!!!! *wink* Wahahahahhaha!

Private joke.;) I'm off now. Muakz!



Inseperable Trio on a fun night out:)

Me.

Uh oh. I feel it coming... my throat is scratchy and I have been sneezing my head off all day. The virus that has been going around which I have cheerfully managed to evade has finally struck me.

It is not that bad yet, just hope it doesn't get any worse.

The Da Vinci Code was just awesome, I was hooked to the storyline from the beginning til the end. The movie definately did not disappoint me, and in my opinion, one of the best movies showing this year among all the other crap.

Went to party at Zouk again last night with my team gals and our friends. It was also the birthday of a good friend of mine. I was a tad bored as the music wasn't all that good.

Don't think I will party again anytime soon unless I am sure I will have a smashing good time. I will focus my energies on other things for now.

Flying to Shanghai tonight. Will catch ya all when I'm back!

The abuse continues. A friend once remarked that my body runs on nuclear power... and I am really starting to believe it.

I did my first solo Madras turnaround on Wednesday. And mind you, it is a very physically exhausting flight. For one, we work throughout the night and the flight time is rather long for a turnaround. And let us not forget the full load and the higher demands in general. It was tough but manageable and definately not easy heh..:) But wah lan eh, shackanaden!

I touched down early on Thursday morning and a few of my team members suggested that we watch The Da Vinci Code together. This is the first time that we have arranged to go out in Singapore after being in the team for 1 year!

At the same time, I received a text message from one of my dearest friends, saying that he would like to meet up. I absolutely must meet him coz have not seen him in months!!

How man... how?

Then one of my team gals said, 'The one who backs out is a turtle!!'

So we agreed to confirm the time and place with each other later in the day. I went home, slept 2 measly hours, caught up with some friends via MSN and met one of my gal friends in town.

Then I made my decision, I gave up Da Vinci to meet my friend coz the movie time was just too late heh. I met my team people at Yishun for dinner just before the movie. The moment I got there, they called me a turtle.:( So I was the turtle for the night, and I happened to be wearing green... Sheesh.

Caught up with my friend over drinks at Bar None and once I was feeling a pleasant buzz, we headed to Ministry of Sound to meet up with my team people after their movie.

Hip Hop and R&B, my only loves! Mixed my drinks and boogied the night away. Damn, I was in my element man... Great music, fun company and drinks. I didn't get drunk this time hehe:)

It was 6am when I got home this morning. Today I will catch that movie and tonight, it's time for Round 2.

Well-meaning advice or one based on sheer prejudice? The lined is totally blurred sometimes. I would definately say something if I feel that a person was being maligned unfairly, so I had to say something... I gave a long lecture to someone close to me on not being judgemental and forming silly conclusions based on irrelevant incidents.

I am glad I got through to her coz it means a lot to me that she sees my point, she came round and said she was sorry. She can be so biased but I know that's because she wants what's best for me.

I love my friends to death, they make it all better.:)

A few people and I have always asked ourselves this question, 'Is it so hard to be happy?'

Yes it is. Take knowing what you want out of life for instance. For a period of time, I felt invincible and radiated happiness and positivity. Then you realize knowing what you want is simply not good enough.

You overlook the fact that it's a struggle just to get what you really want. You start to question yourself, will getting it give you true happiness? Or will it lead to even more crossroads of uncertainty? And the irony is, the more you want something with all your heart, the more it eludes you and the worse you feel. When does it ever stop? Does that mean we should settle for second best? I guess I will never know...

My only comfort right now is all the people I have in my life and taking on the arduous task of making the best out of the present moment.

Just fuck it. Screw everything. Let my heart be numbed. Let my heart be still. Let all my doubts and uncertainties be silenced. And let me retreat into the private recesses of my mind... until I am ready to come out of my sanctuary.

Two words, freaky coicidence. The way I find out about things these days is almost uncanny. And the weirdest part? Someone tells me about something and I listen. Since, I don't think it is any of my business to find out more than what that person is willing to reveal, I leave it at that. Yet, the information literally comes to me from various sources and when you put two and two together, you have the whole big fucking picture.

That god damn picture makes up a piece of an even bigger, more important picture. In retrospect, it is not a bad thing, at least you know what to expect out of the present situation and react with just the right dose of caution. But knowing too much can be more of a bane, than a blessing... Especially if you do not like knowing what you know.

Knowledge is a double-edged sword, it can be a revelation or a curse...

For the past few days, I have had to battle the ever persistent emotional struggle within me. I never knew pain existed in so many forms. Patience has never been one of my strengths but now, I am forced to wait for something that still remains elusive at the moment. The only thing I have now is hope.

I can only hope, but it is good enough for now...

No time to blog. Experiencing a tangled web of mixed feelings again... Off to Abu Dhabi for another 6 days. So if you don't see me online, you know where I am. Take care everyone.

This is going to be a rather erratic entry as I am just gonna squeeze in a quick update and it doesn't help I need to take a shit soon. wahahhahahahah!

I am still little hungover in the exhausted kinda way but I had a lovely time yesterday! I planned all my appointments back to back from 10am to 11pm. I met up with an ex-classmate from poly and then met the gals, Judy and Juli! OMG! it has been too long and I missed them so so much!

I was supposed to meet another friend for drinks but I was too tired and had to give it a miss... Still feel very bad about it coz he is a friend I have not met for a very long time as well.:(

More on my trip, I made a new friend that I definately intend to keep in touch with. Her company made the entire trip totally awesome. It was all about partying, shopping, hanging out, meaningful conversations and singing karaoke in Hong Kong. It's amazing how we connected on the same level... that is just totally rare:)

Btw... the extensions are a bloody waste of money. Fuck man, it was so difficult to do my hair for work. At least I satisfied the itch of wanting to do extensions for years. Never again, I tell you. I freaking pulled them out one by one when I was in San Francisco and kept them and lost some hair in the process. BLOODY HELL!

My hair grows fast, my bangs look decent now and I feel silly. Oh well... another long day ahead today.

Got to go!

Back from Hong Kong/San Francisco. I am absolutely exhausted. Will blog more when I have the time. Goodnight!