WHO AM I - CASTING CROWNS

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

The above, are the lyrics to the song that deeply resonates with my soul and summarizes my Christian faith thus far.

Who am I? 5 years ago, I would not have the answer to that question, but after accepting Christ into my life again in 2006, I know now... Religion aside, it is very important to know our identity and our purpose in life as it gives us our direction, without which, we'd just be drifting along like a piece of deadwood.

Over the years, I have established my own identity and I dare say I have a pretty strong sense of purpose. However, I would experience occasional bouts of self-doubt, confusion and fear of the unknown, all usually due to external influences. There will always be people who give advice that contradicts our beliefs and perhaps, confuse us even further. Then there may also be some experiences that we are unwittingly exposed to, which may subtly cause us to lose ourselves over time. Being a Christian keeps me in check, so when I stray, I never stray too far.

Knowing what you want in life is 90% of the battle won, because when it finally comes your way, you'd be able to identify it and not let it slip you by. A few years back, I remember lamenting to a good friend, on the the boats that I kept missing and he told me to wait for a ship instead. Then one day in August this year, the ship came to me, and I am glad I held out for it.

Looking back, I am happy with all the choices I have made so far and how my life has changed because of them. I am feeling incredibly happy these days and there is just so much love to give. I feel nearly complete and many things are falling nicely into place. Once I am where my dreams have taken me, it will be complete.

The best thing that has happened to me in 2009 besides getting my license, is having met that special someone whom I can share those dreams with. God is good.