I had a wake-up call this morning. It is still not too late.
Not to late to break out of this comfort zone that I am enjoying right now. It is time to do something for myself, time to move on. I am going to do a part-time degree and I'll try to make it for next year's intake.
By the age of 25, I must:
- Have my driving license
- Get my Grade 8 in piano
- Get my degree
- Look damn fucking good, or at least maintain. That is a must hahaha;p
I have more to add to that list of course.
By then, I would have already been with the company for 5 years and I will get my graduity. My bond will end this year. If the right opportunity comes along, I might just quit before my contract ends. As Judy put it ever so aptly, 'collect ammunition'.
Working and studying part-time is fucking tough but it has to be done. I must create options for myself while I am still young and have no commitments. I must harness every single one of my abilities so that nothing goes down the drain. I KNOW I am capable, just that I lack the discipline and motivation. I do not want to look back, 10 years down the road with regret, not having acheived anything of substance.
My worst fear is to be left behind when everyone else has moved on. It scares the shit out of me. It truly does. I like my job but I do not want it to be the ONLY option for me.
Thanks for talking to me Judy and Julz.:) The both of you have been constant sources of positivity and encouragement in my life. I love you gals to bits! *big hug*
Less partying and mucking around, gonna surge ahead and be the best I can be. Wish me luck on my ambition.:)