And so, despite myself, I am disappointed. Yep, a gnawing disappointment that has been residing in me for some time now.

The tears threaten to spill again. Fuck, and I thought I was over it. Why? I ask myself, do I even bother and put myself through this? I can only keep up the 'oh, I'm happy and life is all good' facade for so long.

I fooled everyone, including myself. Well done.

And yet, maybe I deserve it. This time the joke's on me. I laugh at myself for being so silly but at least I can walk away with my head held up high.

Perhaps, now it is the time to go away...